i am just kinda over him not communicating not calling and always having an excuse... so today i emailed him not sure if he will even read it but i am just over the whole everyone else getting two calls a day and i cant even get a quick i am ok email atleast once a day.. he will call only when he needs something every 4 days if i am lucky... so i am just done i still love him but i just cant take the lack on communication! i have told him before and he promised he was going to work on but to me it doesnt seem like it... yes i know he has missions but i know for a fact his soldiers are calling and skyping as much as they want... i still love him and want him home safe i just want to feel loved is that too much?!?!?
ugh i just dont know anymore.... depression is worse by the minute and faking the smiles and coping is getting harder... holding the tears back every minute is not working too well either... just wish it was different i just wish he would communicate a little better and maybe just drop me a line a little more, guess i just am not the army wife i pretend to be :(
Oh girl, being an army wife is HARD. And I think a lot of the time there is this image that we are always strong, always ok. But the biggest part of being an army wife, the one thing we all have in common, is the heartache while they are away! It's OK to have a heavy heart... in fact, it's pretty normal!
ReplyDeleteI hope you guys work things out and you start feeling better soon. Smile through those tears, there's always something worth smiling for!
thanks i hope so too... they had another loss and i know he has a mission or patrol... so basically no clue when i will hear from him... i know its not always his fault but this time around sucks more...
ReplyDeletethanks so do i!