so last nite it took almost 2 hours to get my monkey to bed! seriously i was going insane!! finally got her to go down then she started crying in her sleep at 1am! she has been doing this the past few nites and it goes on for an hour... i finally gave up and brought her in bed with me till she head butted my face then it was back to her bed! then of course she was up before 7am!! ugh
so then my sister texts me she needs me to bring her her backpack to school with pads... awesome cause its raining so i so want to leave and go do this... so we get back and the hubbys said i will be on at 10am (my time) to skype.. woohoo i waited an hour before he got on!! just so you know the waiting kills ya!! and watching the phone and skype does not make him call faster or help when u have to pee!!
so we were chatting and then the internet on his end went out, this was after about 10 mins of trying to get the headphones to work which didnt so it was just typing and seeing each other... which worked fine honestly!! so we were talking only about 10 minutes when it went out and he never came back on :( never got to tell him i love him, miss him be safe adn no voluntarying... yes he knows all of this but i am superstitious and it is something i have to say along with talk to later (never goodbye)... i may be a dork but i am his dork and he loves me for it!
so now i am waiting almost 3 hours later and he must have gave up and went to bed :( guess he needs the rest
my friend who i love dearly just texted me she is having a girl... i am very happy for her but sad at the same time.. if i didnt lose the baby in a few weeks i would be texting everyone too! but instead i sit alone with my secret only a few close friends know and try not to cry... then of course after i read her text i realize r&r is when i would be due :( but of course i wont be... so maybe we will get pregnant during r&r obviously if i do i wont be posting it... it will be a secret till 20 weeks on blog, page, ect i have!
ugh lets hope today gets better suppose to go out with friends tonite and have a few drinks but we will see... i will go but i am kinda sad and feel guilty i always tell the hubby and he doesnt know yet :( i know he wont care i am just a dork like that
well fingers crossed today gets better
stay safe babe i love you so much!
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