beaten up and broken

so supposely the blackout is lifted but why would my husband call and say the 3 easiest words in english that after this weekend i needed most!?!??!
how do i know well cause a "friend" messaged me and was like my husband called but he used someone cells and snuck to call there is still a blackout... thanks thats what i need to hear.. but dont worry all the guys are back and urs is ok well he is not ok till i hear him say it sorry but that is just how i feel... so as i sit here and wait she continues to tell me things that her husband told her like how he is afraid but wont say it to anyone cause he doesnt wanna look like a sissy... he also told her exactly what happened to a guy who got killed! like seriously why would you tell your wife that i dont care how supportive she is it is so not right! suposely her husband played dead next to a dead guy for 4 hours while waiting since they were going to help other injured soldiers! ya so i just kinda didnt know what to say except that she needs to tell someone and he needs to come home and get help!

so now i just sit here and wait thinking why did she tell me everything she heard!? do i seem like someone who wants to hear that? or does she want me to say something to someone so he will get help?? i have some friends (not in the company but army wives0 tell me i should say something but as far as i know i am the only one she told and i dont want her to think she cant trust me! ugh

so i guess i will wait i have a friend who is not deployed who i am gonna send the message to and he is gonna tell me to either call someone or not and then i will also wait for chris... with the time difference it just doesnt matter

and to top this week off my jaw is fucking killing me worse then anything and i am not seeing my chiropractor for 2 weeks cause of the 4th...so i cant really talk or anything :(