the fights and training and being gone

so our first real frg meeting happened, the predeployment ntc meeting.. kinda of waste since they through tons of information at us and you could barely hear them- mic wasnt working and peoples kids screaming... i am not anti kids i have one but i think when we are trying to get information for something like a deployment and they offer child care either one parent go or get a sitter...



anyways first they went over ntc- basically no contact for most of the month... i have done this for special forces so i am ok, other wives are already whining...



then we split off in groups (companies-it was a battloin meeting) and met with the people who were specific to our husbands company... well the cos wife is off island and not coming back the person who stepped in her place is leaving so now they are looking for a new one and of course the one who says they want to is the one who is involved in the drama circle... so i wont be getting any information just cause i was nice to a girl she decided to hates... the hubs doesnt get it and thinks it wont be a big deal but he wasnt around the first deployment... though the first frg group i was involved in became long life friends we did have problems but thats normal... this group i definately feel like it just wont be worth even going to the meetings anymore... i was doing it to show i support my husband but we keep fighitng

wonder is we will even last much longer... i dont know

next meeting is feb?? i think so maybe i will write back either here or other the blog later tonite or this week... lets hope it gets better so far its looking not so good :(

as it gets closer

i am totally kinda freaking out... all the things that could happen are flying around my head, bad i know

and the crazy training and breaks and meetings and even the fights...

he was gone all weekend and has only today and tomorrow off kinda sucks... he is getting eye surgery done soon but still plans to go to ntc as long as the dates for leaving and returning are around his appointments... crazy i know but that is the soldier i married... he loves what he does and wants to make sure everyone is ready and prepared which is nice but sucks... one up thing we get seperation pay while he is gone... just hope my friends hubby doesnt get orders and leaves me :( that will suck i will be so lonely....


we have now gotta 2 emails about frg meeting, one about training and another one about the deployment and all the predeployment dates... one wife already messaged me sayign can u let me know cause my hubby wont tell me anything... i said i would try but she should have her hubby put her on the emailing list (maybe she shouldnt have been such a user-read my other blog theres a few about her)...

anyways training is crazy and i feel like every school or extra crap his company has they send him!! i want it to be family first for once... guess with a deployment soon i am asking way too much... oh well thats my life and the next 2 yrs after this deployment it will be special forces training and just us family time when we can!! so i am a little happier about that, east coast baby :)

well good nite... there will be more about training and deployment real soon promise! 3rd deployment i will kick or ass with only a little fighting!!

he's home

well from training on the big island... thank god cause with the guys gone the wife drama was crazy!!! i will just leave it at this, some wives don't truely understand opsec and that its not just deployment info its also training and being told that they asume you are using "authority" of your hubbys rank!! and there was threats (supposely) on a wife who is pregnant so she had to come stay with me (joy of unexpected or desired guests)...

well the hubby had a long week himself! a new guy missed pt cause he was trashed ( blew .18 when they got him to the mps)... they were told (the ones flying) to be there at 4am (so 3am for the hubs), sucked cause i had to wake up our daughter to drive him, blah! i guess they just sat around till 930 am with their thumbs up their ass... alot of the guys got wind burn extremely bad on their faces (looked like herpes) my hubby only got a little burnt (so now he is tons, heheh).... when he came home on saturday it was baby making time (trying for number 2!!!) our little peanut was so happy to see him! she crawled and stood up into his lap and snuggled on his leg!! so cute :)

he had monday off so lazy family day! we got a toy box cause i was going crazy with toys and books everywhere atleast now they are organized... tuesday he is suppose to have short days but of course it didnt happen so far but he is home for our family walk and dinner which is a plus... he is also getting ready for the boards E-6 here we come!! (i know i dont wear his rank but excited he is finally going to the boards which has been postponed since they got back from iraq almost a year ago!)

nice thing he has monday off and friday and then the following monday... shitty thing he has cq this weekend... but that is army life! atleast i know i can bring the peanut up and he will play with her so i can get homework done or just relax alone!!

well thats our exciting life during training... oh and i am gonna sew the peanuts halloween custome myself (well with help)!!! and the hubs birthday is the 12th so golf, cigars, drinking, and a steak dinner and maybe a positive pregnancy test!!

wish us luck :)

Company Beach BBQ

so friday the company had a "mandatory beach bbq"... but funny thing is not everyone was there, understandable cq duty people didnt but others just didn't show up and no biggie (such bullshit) but they didn't get the estimate calander dates and thats their problem...

it was pretty nice except for the lovely planes taking off right next to us... the guys all played volleyball, their was a bouncey house for kids, football, and plenty of water sports and of course food (burgers and hotdogs- with flies)!!

it would have been nicer if the little cliques weren't already forming... i am just not that type of person, i have always been wicked nice to everyone as long as they are nice to me... well there was this group of wives, i have hung out with a few times (hubby is friends with their hubbys), we are not really friends and they cut a girl out who i talk to every once in awhile (when she needs something-other blog has that whole situation explained)... so anyways theses wives kept looking at me like i was suppose to care that they deleted me from facebook, i don't care one bit and thankfully i will have less drama... i was there just to get info and let my daughter have fun time with her daddy not there to be fake and just be in the drama!! anyways i am over them and completely annoyed i honestly have no clue why they hate me!! the only thing i have said to the one they cut out is once one wifey's hubby is out she probably won't talk that much to the girls atleast from my experience, and another will be so a mommy to a new baby and a third is going to be working so she shouldn't worry about all the shit that has been going on it will change... and the girl i said it to is gonna have a newborn and a toddler so not sure why she doesn't worry about it...obviously it was changed to something else but whatever i am over this highschool bullshit which feels more like middle school!!

i have come to realize that military wives come in two forms 18 year olds or 40 year olds, not saying if you are 18 you act 18, cause there are some young wives who act older... all i am saying is some wives are still in high school and others are adults... and if i wasn't married to a soldier theres a good chance that half the people i have met i would not have ever really talked to or become friends with since there isn't much incommon there... its just my opinion if you don't like it then oh well but honestly think about it as a community we all go thru deployments, hardships, lonely nights, and things some people will never get but if you take the military life out of the equation some people that hang out have nothing in common at all, unless you count loving drama!!!

well the hubs is about to be gone for a week so single parent time... beach tomorrow so need to get some rest!!!

late night

so last nights training the hubs didn't get home till 3am! he was very tired and had to be back at work at 9am, thankfully the little peanut got to see him for a minute even if it was just a minute she was smiling!! you could tell he was exhausted but he seemed happy to let me know that he doesn't have to do the class on saturday!! he still has to help with a carwash but thats just the morning... the CO decided that if you are in the platoon of the guy that got in trouble and anyone who rides a motorcycle, which is fair i guess, i mean better then the hubby having to go sit thru classes then be at a carwash all day then come home to play with his daughter and do the things he has had needed to do since last week!!

tonight he is suppose to be home before 3am but who knows its not really looking like it... i guess after this week he goes away for a week then he is home hopefully at a reasonable time (fingers crossed... hoping)

so another night just sitting here waiting... thankfully one of the drama wives decided she didn't want to talk to me anymore and removed me from her fb (i just didnt care either way)... her hubby is getting out so she can enjoy her military wife friends now cause they probably will disappear very soon... (she was the one with the stupid hubby who drank till he puked blood)...

well lets hope this training doesn't get worse before he gets better and no one gets hurt trying with bullets (and some are not smart-drinking before work)

well anyways i am ready for deployment 3 to start so we can kick its ass and start our new life with special forces and back on the east coast!!

good night

the range

so the hubs has training in the field tuesday, wednesday, and thursday... it wouldn't be so bad if we actually saw each other besides when he came home, oh wait thats right we won't seem to see each other tonite well there goes trying to make baby number 2 (maybe sometime this week)...

and saturday he has class cause some soldier was stupid AGAIN!! seriously these are grown men who seem to not get it, don't drink and drive! they could honestly call any one of the sgts and they will pick them up so they don't have these stupid alcohol classes!! this time the soldier decided to drink then drive his motorcycle... seriously some people are so stupid!! he got a dui! another soldier drank so much he was puking blonde, ya so responsible with two kids (one just born)... atleast he called 911 instead of driving but then my hubby had to go check on him and then he was bragging on facebook (but thankfully he is getting out of the army soon)!

really wish these guys would grow up and the ones who are getting out would be the ones doing cq cause then the days he doesn't have cq or work he can be helpful and productive... he had cq sunday and monday was completely useless cause he was so tired, i understand he has to do it but damn 2 days without help one being a day we had things we needed to do and nothing got done!!

ya i just realized how much i vented on this but honestly if the military is suppose to be family first and they are suppose to have a year off after a deployment, why does it never feel that way? i mean there is schools, training and cq/staff duty, and just regular bullshit...

and so the training for deployment begins, next week he is leaving for a week so it should be fun dealing with a child who is now a daddys girl!!

this week

so this week started off okay... the whole company is back with tons of knew guys so monday was basically intros and just making sure everyone is ready and of course lawn wokr till 5 for some stupid reason but thats the military... the hubby was up late working on a class he had to teach so tuesday he missed his alarm and the 3 phone calls so at 630am a sgt came and rang our bell... of course woke everyone up and the baby and dog did not want to go back to sleep (long day for me) but the hubs was still able to come home and do a skype birthday for our monkey (families are on the east coast and we are in hawaii)... today he was at the ranger setting up for training and showing the CO whatever they have planned...

so it looks like the next few months are gonna be alot of late nights and me trying to figure out how to make my daughter realize screaming at me cause her daddy isnt home to play is not my fault!! our plan is to get her the daddy hero doll espically when he goes away for a month for training to (i think) cali... i like my sanity!!

and no to mention the drama with the wives that seems to get worse by the day... i stay out of it but i hear all about it... gotta love young wives who are going thru their first deployment, have one baby another one the way, and are under 21 and not really grown up, havent been out of their parents house until they got married!! dont get me wrong i have no problem with people who are young and marrying i just feel that sometimes you need that little time to be on your own and be independent... thats all

i love my husband and support him !! he just got a promotion well sorta, he is now in charge of the platoon so he should be going to the boards either august or september... they have been telling him since iraq he was going but something always happens (schools or a new person in charge)....

i dont know i guess this is my life espically since the hubby said he is a lifer and i am ok with that... there is always going to be cliques even if i dont belong to one, there is always going to be the wives that feel like they wear their hubbys rank (there is no rank in my house as long as you are not in uniform), and most of all no matter what i do or who i may be nice with there is that chance it will bite me in the ass! my past may catch up with me but just being me will have to be good enough everyone wil judge even when they say they dont... i am happy with me, my relationship with the hubs, our beautiful daughter and life we have and that is good enough for me!! now i just gotta get over the fact not everyone is gonna like me and people are gonna talk its like high school just alot bigger and the real world (army world)...

blaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... oh well lets hope this week gets better! saturday is our babys birthday party should be interesting

why!!

why would you try and mess with my husbands job when he was just doing his job?!?! saying my husband let me doing something that he didnt just cause he wanted to make sure you ok is such bullshit... i could have done what the rest of your friends did and just let him hurt you again and stand by and say nothing! then he would really fuck himself over and end up in jail!!!

so basically trying to help that wife and husband out who were having issues backfired... by my hubby talking to the soldier who may have hit his wife and then talking to the wife, she got mad and is saying she wants to get my husband in trouble saying he lets me read the councelling statements he has to write... which is beyond true! he never does i found some once, old ones from the first base we met at that he was just gonna throw away but i said maybe we should shred them since social security numbers were on them... ya i also came across a few from the guys here and read like a sentence but not the whole folder and obviously i am gonna know when he has to go deal with a soldier with issues (which the soldier who hit his wife did have with medications).... if he has to leave during dinner or just when we are having time together or with his daughter he does tell me "oh its so and so and i need to go do this"... and its not like when they call drunk or all drugged up i cant hear it or when the hubby is all upset he does give me some information but not a ton and i dont tell anyone... its not my place

i am just so over this and just see this deployment getting worse by the day :(

and so it begins....

ok so i was trying to avoid drama and just keep to myself and just get info from the frg and the hubby while he was still around... the work schedules for the guys has been shitty up until last week and this week since its block leave but if they didnt take it its basically half days...

so alot of couples have been fighting to the point divorce has been thrown around alot... i am not saying my relationship is perfect we have our fights but the hubbys company is so bad right now there is no room in the barracks so guys have to live with friends... so this weekend a guy was staying with us, he has a kid so i took his wife out for a bit (they dont have a car) and he spent time with his kid... i know her sorta, she isnt someone i would tell all my secrets to but i dont mind helping out or just being there to listen... anyways she talking and telling me just everything that has been going on with them and how she is having a hard pregnancy... then she starts to tell me about some of her other friends that i have met but not really hungout with (they are young)... so she mentioned how one of the girls who just moved in with her hubby (they just got married) had been choked by her hubby... so i mentioned it to my hubby cause he use to be under him (they rearranged all the platoons so he isnt anymore)... both denied it and said they heard that rumor but its not true... i hope she knows she can go to my husband or even me if she wants help since now of her friends will speak up....

i just hope she realizes i wasnt trying to start anything or be in her business but being hurt whether during sex cause the guy likes it or because he cant handle is angry isnt cool and their are people who will help and not just sit there and let it get worse before they do soemthing!!!

well time to crash long day tomorrow... i really hope the drama doesnt get worse i mean seriously we are months away from the deployment we dont even have orders!!! but thankfully my hubs is sending me home so i can be around my family and friends and no going insane on this island!!

the fourth and family time

so my hubby had a four day weekend like i am guessing most military people did!! so we had a pretty chill day friday just hang out had family time... saturday basically the same and the hubby even let me sleep in!! he actually woke up in time to hear the princess wake up and took her downstairs and did her morning route :) so awesome!!

so sunday was the fourth... we had a pretty lazy morning just did the normal; hung out, played with haylie, nap time... then when she woke up from her nap we fed her lunch then headed up to the carnival on base... it was ok extremely hot! there was a few rides and a petting zoo... so we headed home and then headed to our friends for bbq... around 530-6 we headed back to the carnival for smashmouth and decided to let her pet the animals (felt so bad for them way too hot and too many people)... she loved it smiling and petting the pig, goats, and bunnies (more amused with the hay though)... i was extremely sunburnt from the first trip up there since we walked... i put sunblock on my daughter but none on me- boy was that a big mistake!! arms,tops of my hand, shoulders, chest, and upper back toasted red... of course no bra for the next few days... basically not leaving the house just wearing light weight clothes!! barely able to move my arms... learned my lesson sun block no matter what!!

well finally around 830pm the fireworks started!! they were awesome, i was so impressed!! the little stinker didnt cry one bit! it was such a suprise she actually passed out after about 5 minutes, it was late so i completely wasnt so suprised!!!

monday was another family day relaxing... it was nice and i even got a nap in :)

block leave started and the hubbys didnt take any but no biggie they only working half a days but that just means very soon the extreme training starts and then before we know it deployment will be here!! we still dont know what exactly we are doing except i am definately moving home!! save money, pay of bill and just not be trapped on this island!

well that is what is going on... school is going first 10 quizes now just need to type of up the assignments and a few more sections then another certificate and hopefully a job!! crossing fingers

ok well good nite.... another long day tomorrow maybe dmv attempt number 2 (long story for another time) or just homework...

and so the training begins...

so the hubby decided to let me in on the fact that he will not be here for our anniversary once again... you think i should be use to it by now but i thought since the deployment isnt for a bit and they have block leave the month of july that no actual training wouldnt start for a few more months but oh well... so ya he isnt sure if its the big island he is going to or if he will really be here but either way he will be at work all day long and most likely i wont see him...

i am just ready to get things started though! i think actual dates rather then estimated months would be nice... i am just ready to start getting things packed up and figured out... i know i am moving home which i am very excited about... i will be able to see my loves and just have a break sometimes which will be nice, my hubby does help but its hard with his schedule sometimes he just isnt home when i may want him to be... but once we have a date then i can figure out the cost to send my car home and put my stuff in storage... it would just be nice to havea to do list and get it done... i just want it to start cause once this deployment is over we head to north carolina for special forces and that will be training for about 2 years!! which will be nice to not have to think or worry about a deployment or even worry about year long deployments anymore (or so we r told)!!!

just ready for the future to start :)

Army wife

So I decided to start this blog since this year seems to be flying by and before I know it my husband will be deploying and my daughter and I will move home with my parents and make trips to see all my East Coast loves!!! My other blog I have will most likely become private unless you are already a follower but not really sure... That blog may end up just becoming almost a diary of things I am not ready to share with the world...

Things are much better lately with my relationship with my husband! We are talking more which is better then what we use to be... I finally actually seeing us last which is so nice since if you asked me a week ago I dont think I could have said that...

I am not completely excited about a third deployment but it will be nice to finally get out of debt and save some actual money! or atleast thats our goal!! always good to have a goal. right??!! We are still deciding whether or not a second baby would be a good or bad idea all I know is I wouldnt mind even though it would suck without the hubby around... We are talking about getting our daughter the daddy doll, I know she would love it and maybe it wouldn't be as hard with him gone...

So this blog will mostly be about the next few months and the year that he is deployed... maybe even add some pictures of the family!! still getting us to using this site!! any suggestions on how I can make this blog more me let me now!!