sorry things have been cyrazy! i started working 10pm to 8am i know i am crazy... then i come home and take care of my daughter (its only 4 days so its not that bad plus its extra money for our family!) i also started going to the gym! i even started seeing a trainer 3 days a week... my goal is to get is great shape by decemeber which the trainer said is a great possiblity!! i have been doing spin, pilates, and yoga each kicking my ass!! monkey still does her two classes one being dance which she loves both! in the am at the gym if i go there is daycare so she plays with kids and at nite hangs with my parents... then if its a work day her and i hang out and snuggle before she goes to bed and i head to work...
with the hubby, the missions have increased and longer outtings :( but doesnt seem to be as many blackouts!!(knocking on wood)... today we skyped till he got kicked off and he told me he cant reenlist till next year due to all the changes the military is doing, also if they make him redue the selection process of sf he is not sure he wants to or even stay in! i freaked out!! i know i shouldnt have but i did cause he still has a year and i have no desire to return and live in hawaii for a year! plus if we get pregnant (and not lose the baby) i will completely stressed over what will happen and where we will go! before the deployment he talked about staying in till retirement (it use to be till they kicked him out) cause no point in getting out if by his time up it will be 9 years so why not stay in for 20... i said thats fine and was even fine with special forces... he wouldnt deploy for 2 1/2 years cause of training and going medic meant he would have medical background and could do emt or actually go to school and maybe be a doctor (if he wanted)... of course today he says well i can be a cop! hellz no no way!! i liked the idea of moving near campbell and being close but not extremely close to family... and with the military we have security- housing, paycheck, insurance, food!! yes the hours suck sometimes and he misses time with us but that could happen in any job maybe not as long time away but still!! i honestly dont know i wish we could have talked more but he couldnt get back on i guess or was too annoyed with the getting signed off... so hopefully he will call/text while at work and we can just look at some pros and cons... maybe we should wait til r&r but i still think staying in even if its only till 10 year mark is better then getting out at 9 years?? right???
ugh i dont know i just needed to get it out... now its till to snuggle and put away laundry before work :(
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