this week

so this week started off okay... the whole company is back with tons of knew guys so monday was basically intros and just making sure everyone is ready and of course lawn wokr till 5 for some stupid reason but thats the military... the hubby was up late working on a class he had to teach so tuesday he missed his alarm and the 3 phone calls so at 630am a sgt came and rang our bell... of course woke everyone up and the baby and dog did not want to go back to sleep (long day for me) but the hubs was still able to come home and do a skype birthday for our monkey (families are on the east coast and we are in hawaii)... today he was at the ranger setting up for training and showing the CO whatever they have planned...

so it looks like the next few months are gonna be alot of late nights and me trying to figure out how to make my daughter realize screaming at me cause her daddy isnt home to play is not my fault!! our plan is to get her the daddy hero doll espically when he goes away for a month for training to (i think) cali... i like my sanity!!

and no to mention the drama with the wives that seems to get worse by the day... i stay out of it but i hear all about it... gotta love young wives who are going thru their first deployment, have one baby another one the way, and are under 21 and not really grown up, havent been out of their parents house until they got married!! dont get me wrong i have no problem with people who are young and marrying i just feel that sometimes you need that little time to be on your own and be independent... thats all

i love my husband and support him !! he just got a promotion well sorta, he is now in charge of the platoon so he should be going to the boards either august or september... they have been telling him since iraq he was going but something always happens (schools or a new person in charge)....

i dont know i guess this is my life espically since the hubby said he is a lifer and i am ok with that... there is always going to be cliques even if i dont belong to one, there is always going to be the wives that feel like they wear their hubbys rank (there is no rank in my house as long as you are not in uniform), and most of all no matter what i do or who i may be nice with there is that chance it will bite me in the ass! my past may catch up with me but just being me will have to be good enough everyone wil judge even when they say they dont... i am happy with me, my relationship with the hubs, our beautiful daughter and life we have and that is good enough for me!! now i just gotta get over the fact not everyone is gonna like me and people are gonna talk its like high school just alot bigger and the real world (army world)...

blaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... oh well lets hope this week gets better! saturday is our babys birthday party should be interesting

why!!

why would you try and mess with my husbands job when he was just doing his job?!?! saying my husband let me doing something that he didnt just cause he wanted to make sure you ok is such bullshit... i could have done what the rest of your friends did and just let him hurt you again and stand by and say nothing! then he would really fuck himself over and end up in jail!!!

so basically trying to help that wife and husband out who were having issues backfired... by my hubby talking to the soldier who may have hit his wife and then talking to the wife, she got mad and is saying she wants to get my husband in trouble saying he lets me read the councelling statements he has to write... which is beyond true! he never does i found some once, old ones from the first base we met at that he was just gonna throw away but i said maybe we should shred them since social security numbers were on them... ya i also came across a few from the guys here and read like a sentence but not the whole folder and obviously i am gonna know when he has to go deal with a soldier with issues (which the soldier who hit his wife did have with medications).... if he has to leave during dinner or just when we are having time together or with his daughter he does tell me "oh its so and so and i need to go do this"... and its not like when they call drunk or all drugged up i cant hear it or when the hubby is all upset he does give me some information but not a ton and i dont tell anyone... its not my place

i am just so over this and just see this deployment getting worse by the day :(

and so it begins....

ok so i was trying to avoid drama and just keep to myself and just get info from the frg and the hubby while he was still around... the work schedules for the guys has been shitty up until last week and this week since its block leave but if they didnt take it its basically half days...

so alot of couples have been fighting to the point divorce has been thrown around alot... i am not saying my relationship is perfect we have our fights but the hubbys company is so bad right now there is no room in the barracks so guys have to live with friends... so this weekend a guy was staying with us, he has a kid so i took his wife out for a bit (they dont have a car) and he spent time with his kid... i know her sorta, she isnt someone i would tell all my secrets to but i dont mind helping out or just being there to listen... anyways she talking and telling me just everything that has been going on with them and how she is having a hard pregnancy... then she starts to tell me about some of her other friends that i have met but not really hungout with (they are young)... so she mentioned how one of the girls who just moved in with her hubby (they just got married) had been choked by her hubby... so i mentioned it to my hubby cause he use to be under him (they rearranged all the platoons so he isnt anymore)... both denied it and said they heard that rumor but its not true... i hope she knows she can go to my husband or even me if she wants help since now of her friends will speak up....

i just hope she realizes i wasnt trying to start anything or be in her business but being hurt whether during sex cause the guy likes it or because he cant handle is angry isnt cool and their are people who will help and not just sit there and let it get worse before they do soemthing!!!

well time to crash long day tomorrow... i really hope the drama doesnt get worse i mean seriously we are months away from the deployment we dont even have orders!!! but thankfully my hubs is sending me home so i can be around my family and friends and no going insane on this island!!

the fourth and family time

so my hubby had a four day weekend like i am guessing most military people did!! so we had a pretty chill day friday just hang out had family time... saturday basically the same and the hubby even let me sleep in!! he actually woke up in time to hear the princess wake up and took her downstairs and did her morning route :) so awesome!!

so sunday was the fourth... we had a pretty lazy morning just did the normal; hung out, played with haylie, nap time... then when she woke up from her nap we fed her lunch then headed up to the carnival on base... it was ok extremely hot! there was a few rides and a petting zoo... so we headed home and then headed to our friends for bbq... around 530-6 we headed back to the carnival for smashmouth and decided to let her pet the animals (felt so bad for them way too hot and too many people)... she loved it smiling and petting the pig, goats, and bunnies (more amused with the hay though)... i was extremely sunburnt from the first trip up there since we walked... i put sunblock on my daughter but none on me- boy was that a big mistake!! arms,tops of my hand, shoulders, chest, and upper back toasted red... of course no bra for the next few days... basically not leaving the house just wearing light weight clothes!! barely able to move my arms... learned my lesson sun block no matter what!!

well finally around 830pm the fireworks started!! they were awesome, i was so impressed!! the little stinker didnt cry one bit! it was such a suprise she actually passed out after about 5 minutes, it was late so i completely wasnt so suprised!!!

monday was another family day relaxing... it was nice and i even got a nap in :)

block leave started and the hubbys didnt take any but no biggie they only working half a days but that just means very soon the extreme training starts and then before we know it deployment will be here!! we still dont know what exactly we are doing except i am definately moving home!! save money, pay of bill and just not be trapped on this island!

well that is what is going on... school is going first 10 quizes now just need to type of up the assignments and a few more sections then another certificate and hopefully a job!! crossing fingers

ok well good nite.... another long day tomorrow maybe dmv attempt number 2 (long story for another time) or just homework...

and so the training begins...

so the hubby decided to let me in on the fact that he will not be here for our anniversary once again... you think i should be use to it by now but i thought since the deployment isnt for a bit and they have block leave the month of july that no actual training wouldnt start for a few more months but oh well... so ya he isnt sure if its the big island he is going to or if he will really be here but either way he will be at work all day long and most likely i wont see him...

i am just ready to get things started though! i think actual dates rather then estimated months would be nice... i am just ready to start getting things packed up and figured out... i know i am moving home which i am very excited about... i will be able to see my loves and just have a break sometimes which will be nice, my hubby does help but its hard with his schedule sometimes he just isnt home when i may want him to be... but once we have a date then i can figure out the cost to send my car home and put my stuff in storage... it would just be nice to havea to do list and get it done... i just want it to start cause once this deployment is over we head to north carolina for special forces and that will be training for about 2 years!! which will be nice to not have to think or worry about a deployment or even worry about year long deployments anymore (or so we r told)!!!

just ready for the future to start :)