not much longer

we official have a date and of course i wont post it but its very soon!! the paperwork for my erd goes in tomorrow, the chaplan (saw him today) agreed it would be best if i went home since i will have family support and can get a job and with the drama in my neighborhood (plus i said i would move into rear de if i get trapped here)... i understand the army wont pay for me to come back and i am completely ok with that espically since after this deployment we are suppose to head to special forces!

it was interesting the chaplan asked my hubby why he wanted this and why he just was not heading to special forces after passing the first phase, he said cause we could pay off bills then be in a better situation for special forces... my response was yes financial we would get out of debt but he trained with his guys and is decidicated to them and wont leave them he feels like he needs to... which i get and appreciate cause i know it means he cares!!

so i am ok just now have to wait for the ok from the military to pay for our stuff, car, and us to go home!! should know by the end of the week!!

goal- movers next day car the following clear housing and then hubby leaves and us (monkey and me)!!

doctors/erd

so today i got an appointment with a doctor (my primary care was not available) so i had to admit alot of things that i have never admitted to any doctor since marrying my husband and try to get them to write a letter so the army will pay for us to go home... cause we got some other options and its gonna break us! (4000 for our stuff, almost 3000 for my car and then who knows for a ticket)!

anyways the doctor got me into a therapist today (same day appointment) which i guess never happens! so the psychologist i talked to was all about drugs (he told me straight out) and i said no to drugs... well he finally gave in and wrote me the letter stating that due to my medical problem (kidneys) that it would be best if i go home but he had to add the anxiety and depression from not being able to work and stress that moving would be the best... which i guess works but then my hubby told me who will see it and i feel like everyone will know my business and look at me like something is wrong with me :(

of course the major thing i kept saying over and over was i lye about this cause i was afraid and told that if i admit i need help my husband career will be effected and they could take my daughter away! yes i realize this is crazy but its what everyone around me was saying... so we will see, my husband read the letter said it sounded good and it doesnt make me look bad but definately explains our fights and throwing him out... so we will see... gotta still wait till the 21st when leave is over then maybe met with a chaplan then the paperwork goes to everyone its suppose to and pray we get it all in and things set up before he deploys! the process says 14 days so who knows we have no home as of march 31st so our stuff needs to be picked up by then and then we need to figure out where we will be staying if i havent left yet!!

ahhhh i just wish we knew so i can be less stressed!

leaving

i am ready to get off this island! i hate the neighborhood i live in they have no consideration for anyone and seriously think screaming, yelling, drinking, smashing bottles in the dumpster, throwing trash whereever, and playing loud music from their cars are ok! my husband has gone out twice, i called the mps who said they are busy tonite but will get someone out when they can! seriously!!?? this place is so fucked up...

my poor monkey has a cold probably from the rain at the deployment ceremony but thats my luck... i have felt like shit the past few days really just wanna puke but thankfully block leave has started so the hubbys phone isnt going off every 5 seconds! so i napped while he entertained our toddler!! i took a pregnancy test negative but since february is short not sure when my period is coming (sorry tmi)...

so now we are gonna start the erd paperwork and housing paperwork to get out of here... along with having as much family time as possible... so far we have done dinner out (to congrat the hubs on the boards) and bought him a new xbox for deployment (seriously the damn machines last a deployment if we are lucky) and we are still waiting on his computer (another new one)!!

so nice not to hear an alarm go off at 5am or the phone ring or text constantly cause some soldier needs something, yes i know its his job but still cant we go an hour after work without a million texts!? honestly he will be home 5 seconds and have texts before he can shit!

well i think i may crash hubby is playing his video game and the asshole neighbors are giving me a migrane hopefully the mps come soon and do their job!

deployment ceremony

it was a nice windy wet ceremony! and even though i had no clue where the hubs would be standing i stood in a great place :) the food they served after not so good but atleast we got to spend some time together and my monkey got to run around and see her daddy stand up and show his job!!

well now we start block leave so we are gonna enjoy our few weeks before the deployment starts!